Here's To The New Year

Well, if I had the time and energy, I would scroll back on FB to this time last year and see the promising posts for 2014. This time last year  I was preparing to run my second 5k with my sister and a friend. The Millennium Run in Killen was just me and the voice(s) in my head. If you run, you know what I'm talking about. We were actually a team this night. But before you start asking Henry to start me on medication, its all about that inner warrior, angel, witch, lover, friend, soul mate, etc. We women have so many hats we wear and things we balance for the good of the world. At some point you have found yourself in a discussion with one or more of these "voices". Whether it be to talk yourself in to something or out of something, you have these talks, its OK to admit it.

I know I'm strong, because of some of the things I've dealt with. And ask Henry, I can be a witch sometimes too.  But yet I struggle with digging deep and seeing the true beauty inside and constantly work against myself for the goals I set toward reaching a healthy lifestyle. So crazy.

3 months after the new year started, I crawled across the finish line of the Atlanta Spartan Sprint. What A Feeling. I agree with my sister in that one of the best feelings of the race was to have complete strangers jumping in to help no matter what. THAT is what I should have held onto last year. Jumping in to help those around me no matter what.

Well, i could go on and on with the many ups and downs in 2014 and here I sit knocking on the door to 2015. I'm not going to make promises for the new year. I simply want to say a prayer for a bright tomorrow. Just one day at a time for me and my family and friends to be blessed and make the best of the gift(s) God has given us. Don't get ahead of God's plan. Every time we do we find ourselves on our knees turning back to Him. 

So here we go, knock, knock, knock.......... I'm looking forward to this journey...one day at a time.

Who Me?

Today I sat down to start a project.  One of motivational purposes. The project consisted of me going through magazines and clipping out anything and everything that was positive and\or could relate to my very own journey. As I'm progressing, I start thinking of my sister (love her and I'll share more about her later). I started planning this awesome project for her.

I'm clipping away with thoughts of how I'm going to complete the project. How I will ship it to her and already imaging how she will react when she looks at it.

THEN.....(you can add dramatic sound effects like I just did) I started telling myself "uh, wasn't this project for you?"

I'm usually doing for others and putting others first. Very seldom do I follow through on what I want to do or the things that would excite me. Or, if I begin something I think about how its going to effect others around me. Not that its wrong or negative thinking about others. But how positive is it for me if I don't put myself first some of the time.

Motherhood kind of puts us in the way of caring (doing) for other or making sure everyone is taken care of. For some its hard to turn off and care or do for ourselves. This will be a big obstacle for me. But its doable. Right?

Well, the project is back in my court and will be completed with my own interest in mind. If you find yourself in a similar situation, I recommend starting small. Favorite movie? Read a favorite book? Sit alone in your bedroom for a few minutes. Whatever helps you focus on your inner self for just a moment. Yes, I'm going to practice what I preach.

Good luck!

Getting Started

And now I begin a journey all to new to me. Blogging. I've always had difficulty keeping a journal and although I realize this is much more than just journalling, I realize I'm opening up to all those who will take the time to read what I have to post. I'm hoping this will create a positive and helpful place formyself and all others who join in on my journey. 

See, I have started so many "journeys", its exhausting. Some of them I took to many different levels. Others never left the space between my ears. 

I've played with the idea of blogging many different times but either I couldn't get the right kind of info to start one  or I've not taken the time to figure it out on my own. But here I am and here we go. 

If you are curious about my theme, well " Inside Out" is something I continue to struggle with. Trying find the beauty I have inside and shinning it on the outside. I (along with countless others) think the battle is about the outward appearances and forget, or don't listen to the beauty kept hidden on the inside. 

I am only an expert for what I have experienced on my own and even then you might be able to show me a better way. But over the years I've learned things that by sharing with others I might help someone through the struggle by getting them to their results faster. 

I hope everyone enjoys and I hope I'm able to get "out" everything have bursting to get free. 

Thanks for taking the time and I hope you come back soon.